09-23-25 12:03 AM
feeling: Beat

had a long ass day toda and i’m fuckin BEAT!!!

i had to get up at 7 IN THE MORNING to take marley to her 8:00 AM vet appt. last week i noticed she hadn’t been eating much and worried she was sick or maybe her teeth were bothering her. the vet didn’t notice anything problematic outright, so she was probably just in a mood or not feeling well. she’s eating better now in any case, so they just said to keep an eye on her.

better safe than sorry! especially now that her and charlie are gonna be 13 YEARS OLD!!! the vet said that she’s very spry for her age tho and her teeth looked really good! i should hope that she’s spry—she certainly has the zoomies to prove it! lol

i got home and caught some more sleep for an few hours, then got up and showered. i’m gonna be real—my scalp has been sooooo bad lately. very very itchy with dandruff. it’s driving me insane. idk what happened because it’s never been this bad before. i’m using some good anti-dandruff shampoo and conditioner; hoping it’ll work its magic soon bc i miss my ethique bars.

i also fell for a phishing scam today ): i’m so embarrassed lol. it was a scam email “from my email provider”, fastmail, saying my monthly payment hadn’t gone thru. i thought it was weird but it looked legit. i followed the link and put my card info in to see where it lead (DUMB I KNOW) and it asked for a “confirmation code” which i didn’t receive.

i googled it and someone on reddit said they had the same email with a screenshot that looked just like mine, and to watch out for it. oops too late! so i had to freeze and cancel my debit card bluh. sucks but it is what it is. at least i caught it literally within like 15 minutes.

it’s honestly probably a good thing tbh…i’ve been stressed a lot recently and also kind of depressed lol. whenever i get in a funk i end up wanting to buy stuff. i literally hate clutter and i’m trying to get rid of as many of my personal belongings as possible. i started cutting down on stuff earlier this year and became obsessed. i just told my wife how i want to get rid of even more but she told me to wait until she can help me sort things bc she’s worried i’ll bin too much stuff or anything important lol.

anyway…yeah i’ve been window shopping lately. my go-to thing is BAGS and any EDC accessories like pouches and whatever. lately i’ve been thinking about how i want a new travel backpack—keyword being want, NOT need.

i have a cotopaxi 28L allpa—the first version from like 4 years ago. they put out a new updated model that looks a lot better but idk if i wanna stick with it or try a new bag. i’ve also been researching the pantagonia mini mlc, and my latest fixation is the osprey 26+6.

my wife is visiting for a week and a half next month, starting with a weekend in chicago together and ending with my little sister’s wedding, both of which will require 2-3 night stays. i wanna try packing out my greenroom136 northseeker. it’s only advertised at 20L but tbh it packs out more like a 25L bag. i reckon i could fit my laptop, a packing cube or two, and a toiletry bag with room to spare. it’s my favorite backpack ever so i’ll be really excited if it works as a short-term travel bag too; i’ve only used it for EDC or in conjunction with a roller suitcase.

what else…i got sidetracked thinking about bags lol.

i had to skip art class today which sucked, but i didn’t wanna push myself after getting up early. i also called in yesterday because i couldn’t sleep and my chronic pain was flaring pretty bad. so i took it easy and just chilled before work.

work itself wasn’t awful but i had my closer no-show, which meant i closed drive thru on top of manager stuff. i’m so over it man. people always call in on my shifts and nearly every week i have to close two positions. my GM is chill and works with me on the time off i need to visit my wife, but if it weren’t for that i’d be long gone by now. oh well

now im home! marley is currently draped over the back of my desk chair lol. she is very cozy and warm :) it’s nice.

just listening to spiderland by slint…it’s my comfort album. which is probably weird. but it’s the one album i can put on and let play for however long and i never get sick of it. it’s just familiar and cozy and i love it sm.

idk what ill do now lol…maybe play my 3ds. i was sooo tired at work but now that im just relaxing ive got a second wind, like my brain finally has room to just think and stuff after 3 days of craziness lol.

ig that’s it for now. peace!!